There is always that time of life when something happen to you and you tell yourself that everything is going to be just fine and you foolishly believe in yourself. Everyone tell you that everything is going to be fine and you believe them.
Time is moving forward, so does everything else. You move forward too. You keep talking, joking, smiling, laughing, socializing, doing your tasks, functioning. Everything seems to be fine. In fact, everything is fine except one thing. You. Your feeling. The inside of you. Maybe I should not say your heart because actually your heart is fine too, it keeps beating normally like it always does. Yes, you know you are absolutely not fine no matter how happy you seemed to be to other people.
You know you are not fine no matter how good you are doing on your works. You know you are not fine, because you are counting on the seconds, trying to make sure that you’ll still look fine in the next second. You are counting on the minutes, trying to make sure that whatever feelings you are hiding are not going to bursts out in the next minute. You are counting the days, trying to embrace all the good and bad news coming to you without really being able to give a feeling to response. You keep talking to yourself inside your head, trying to make sure you’re not going to explode any time soon.
However, you know that you will get better. You just have to wait for the time to come. You just need to hold on and keep moving at the same time.
Because sometimes, there’s nothing better than the lyrics of beautiful old song…
From Loving You
From that first look I knew
I found heaven in your eyes
But who was to know, the way it would go
I have no regrets
Glad I let you in
Wouldn’t have missed one single moment
I would do it all over again
‘Cause I was loved
I was touched
And I learned what love is, and I learned what love is
I was blessed
‘Cause I learned what love is, I learned what love is
From loving you
– Mandy Moore
If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger.
― Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights
I was trying to find something to do this afternoon and I remembered that I haven’t been reading for the last few weeks, so I walked to the bookshelf in the house and looked for a rather-thin-book because I was just not in the mood for heavy reading. I found this book titled “DreamCacther” by Alanda Kariza, an inspirational youth of Indonesia who has had done many amazing things despite her young age of 21. Apparently my sister bought this book some times ago but hasn’t even tear the plastic warp open.
DreamCatcher got my attention in seconds because it was very neatly design. The cover is mainly in blue and it has some kind of cloud hanging in the upright corner of the book. The forewords of this book was written by Monique Coleman, The United Nation’s first-ever “Youth Champion” who was also a Disney Actress best known for her co-starring role in High School Musical movies. That was not a surprise knowing that Alanda Kariza has often been appointed as Indonesian representative at so many youth conferences all around the world.
DreamCatcher is such an inspiring book. In this book, Alanda Kariza talks about her way of looking at dreams, her way of pursuing her dreams,why as youths, as the young generation, as the future leaders, and as individuals do we need to have a dream higher than the sky, and how are we going to built our our own stairs to reach and catch those dreams. I said ‘talks’ and not ‘wrote’ because that is what it feels like. The book is structured in steps kind of template where it starts with inventing your dreams, fight your takedowns, designing the blueprint, making them come true, and living your dream.
This book is not a monologe. In every steps of the book, there are activity sheets where you can (or should) write your dreams and schedule, analyzing your own principles and takedowns, listing down your opportunities, and other fun things. I felt like I was having a discussion with Alanda Kariza throughout the whole book. The book is also full of inspiring quotes and interviews that the writer did to some other inspirational youth of Indonesia who have thrived their way in many different paths.
As I wrote in my review of this book on goodreads.com, this book hasn’t only woke me up from my sleep like the other books did, but it also gave me the breakfast-like-energy to go and guide me in drawing my own map of the roads I need to walk on to reach for my dreams. Alanda Kariza and many others have proven that our dreams are something we
can have to chase and catch, now what are we waiting for to go chase and catch ours?
I was scrolling down my tumblr timeline when I stumbled upon Kyu Jong’s 2nd letter for his fans from the army. It is full of beautiful words as always and at the end of the letter he put a poem that I found to be lovely and encouraging at the same time. Here it is 🙂
Credits : kyu-jong.com + (English Translation) xiaochu @ Quainte501.com & sgnoonas.wordpress.com
There Is No Such Road
No matter how hard the road may be
Someone have walked past this road,
No matter how steep the road may be
Someone has gotten through this road.
There is no such road that
No one has ever walked before.
Hope that my dark period of time
Will be helpful to
All the dear people
Who are having a similar journey.
p.s. : I’m not exactly sure about the original source of the poem. Kyu wrote “-Pedro poem-” at the end of it so I think Pedro might have been the name of the poet.
Isn’t it just amazing how our lives change -or let’s say evolve- from time to time? For most of the times, we just have no idea what will happen next year, next month, next week, or even tomorrow or some hours after now. People plans, but faith decides.
Some people might have quite stagnant and stabil life in which they do pretty much the same thing for years. Some people really know what they really want to do in their future since such a young age and working their way towards their dreams carefully steps by steps. However, let’s just be real! We all know that there are more people out there -including me- who live their lives in wonder, taking chances and hoping for lucks in almost all of the decisions they make.
Is it just me or anyone else sometimes feel confused about what are you going to wish for? Aren’t there times when you really want something so badly that you start to think about how are you going to pray for it? Have you ever ask ‘Should I pray for the best thing that God can have for me or should I pray for this thing that I really want to happens’? I mean, if it turns out that what you really want is not the best thing for you, do you want it to happen anyway? Won’t you feel disappointed anyway if the thing you want so badly doesn’t happen even though deep inside you, you know that God has a better plan for you?
It is so complicated, isn’t it? Anyway, c’est la vie. That’s life.